So some of you may have already heard about a car accident I was involved in. Up until that point, I had never had an accident of any kind (other than the ones you have when you're two years old). There are many adjectives I could use to describe my feelings before and after. When I had woken up that morning, I had no idea I would never get to work.
The sadness, sick-to-my-stomach feelings I had that morning are still with me. The day after, I really didn't want to drive but I needed to. I know my co-workers would have understood if I decided to take that day off, but it just didn't feel right knowing that there were no physical aliments resulting from the crash. When I drive past the spot, I can't look. Tears threaten to spill. Fists clench. I breathe slowly and don't look in the rear-view mirror.
I ask myself, why did God allow me to crash? My mom mentioned maybe I would have gotten into a worse crash if I hadn't crashed when I did (which was less than 3 minutes away from my house). Maybe if my steering wheel was operating properly I would have gone into the ditch on the left side of the road and been seriously hurt. Maybe for some reason I wasn't supposed to be a work today. I may never know the answer to this and as a believer in God works everything for good to those who love Him, there must be a legit reason for this. I just wish I knew now.
Wishing that it never happened won't change the fact that it did. I must dust myself off and learn from this. Looking back, there really isn't any way I could have avoided this. Even if I had gone slower, once I hit that ice, I had no control. I remember feeling dumbfounded at it all because I've been in similar weather conditions and hit ice and managed to hit a snow bank or I stopped just a hair before the car in front of me. I honestly don't know why He didn't save me from this crash, however I do thank Him for keeping me safe. I had asked Him seconds before, "Please keep me safe" and in reality He did....just not in the car's perspective.
Hopefully, I will know soon whether or not the car will be fixed or if we have to figure out how to get a new one. As far as why the accident happened in the first place, I won't know until my summons in July. There are still some things that haven't come to light about the other person.
Blizzards in April should not be happening. Blizzards in general in CO never-mind the tiny town of Falcon are horrible. I must have moved to the wrong state. Granted, the East has had its share of spring storms. We keep saying, "Spring is around the corner........right??!?!?" Already, it's been a crazy year and it's only month 4! We shall see what the rest brings. Whatever state/country you're in -- it's a roller-coaster. Just gotta go for the ride.
All in all, it was a scary experience I hope to never repeat but in the event that it does, I know I have Someone protecting me. Thank you all for praying and being a friend! :D
